Random Thoughts

Well, it's the season to remember friends and family that aren't able to be around you. I've definitely have been thinking of past friends. Don't get me wrong, I'm not lack for company, in fact if anything my non-existent social life has been noticed by the masses, I just find that lately my thoughts go to every person I've ever known in my life and how they've effected my life as it is now. Kay... so to get to this point I have a couple people....let's start from the beginning:

-To the Ladies at Bridal Collections who put up with my crazy personality for the last four years.
-To Cathrine...the coolest ever, we be wild and crazy gals
-To Adam for teaching me that I am worth the attention of a kind and giving man
-To Heath for ending up being that man
-To my sis for being my whack of reality and keeping me in line when I start to drift
-To my family for being the peanut gallery (is a good thing)
-And to all those past friends that got me to kick myself in the right direction....I'm not there yet, but I'm on the right path.

And of course to Fedja, who was a constant reminder as to why I stayed single for so long (just kidding pimp daddy, you're still the coolest quazi-brother, you're just too much of a player! lol)

(if I didn't mention you, it's not because I don't think of you, or appreciate you any less, it's 12:30 in the morning and my contacts are VERY dry! lol)

I don't know why these thing pop into my head. I guess it's because I've been tracking my life's progress over the last year or so...and actually I think I'm doing pretty good....so far. Don't get me wrong, I'm far from content...that's going to take a couple more years of trying to achieve my goals...but for now, baby steps.

Then there are the ones that I had to leave behind because their lives sucked the breath out of me, but if it wasn't for those people, I wouldn't have the strength to recognize those kinds of people who effect my life in a very negative way. I'm not perfect, and I have my bad moments, but I'm not about to make other people's lives miserable by whining constantly about why my life could, would, or does suck, as the case may be. I have to keep these people in mind because it inspires me not to dwell on the really negative things in my life, in turn, being like that it would make me out to be exactly like the people I try so hard to keep away. I feel very blessed for what I do have, isn't that enough? But I digress.

I told my dad tonight that I don't regret anything, or anyone in my life due to the fact that each individual instance has taught me some kind of valuable life lesson. I would have done things a little different, but since I can't, why dwell? I want to live my life to be better, because if I didn't learn then, I sure as heck don't want to go through those 'lessons' again.

I don't know, now I'm just rambling, but it feels good to get off my mind. Never regret, just learn from it...cheers.