Alone time

Ok, even though I value each moment I share with Heath, it is nice to have my apartment to myself once and a while. I value my alone time as well, being a hermit for the last 5 years or so has taught me the importance of taking a break from things, of course my house was constantly messy and since I hate doing dishes, you can only imagine. I have to admit, now that I have him over almost everyday, my house has retained a state of cleanliness that I thought (and I'm sure others!) was never possible.

I look back on those days of utter boredom spent sitting in my apartment all by myself wishing for a friend or dare I even hope it, a relationship to pass the time. It wasn't very happy, I got depressed easily and I even worked an extra job on top of my regular job and school so that I could break up the monotony of coming home to an empty house. And when I had to give away my cat...man...not good. I am grateful for that experience however because it makes me value what I have now, because I don't want to go back to that, and to tell you the truth, I don't plan on it, well, for a while anyway!

All in all, I feel that I can connect with a certain person who values her alone time too (you know who you are!), it really gives you a chance to relax and be yourself, you're not expected to clean, cook, pamper, keep up the regime, blah, blah, blah. Not saying that I keep a fake me plastered to my face when he is around, I just feel like I always have to keep things a certain way...we all do it girls...you know we do, but we love them, and that's why we do it...right? I guess that's why women all over hang out in groups, ya'll can relax around eachother because you understand the situation with this silly secret smirk on your faces...hey, I got it too! Wow...what can I add to that revelation?

Needless to say that I know he's going to stop over for a few hours later and I still have a living room full of laundry from yesterday (which he saw), so if it's there he'll know I did nothing (mua-ha-ha), but why does that stress me out??? Oh yea, *smirk*, I'm humoring him while bettering my cleanliness (gag, did I really just say that???). Ok, well, I must ponder on that some more...hmmm...cheers!