We all need a little break

So I get today off from work because I was soo efficient that my boss decided that I didn't need to be at work. That's nice, I needed a break from the monotony. I was going crazy bored with all the crap that's been going on in my life. SOOOOOO much, and I'm not one to really open up about certain things until I've been able to mull them over for a bit. So as far as I can tell, these are the things that are bothering me the most (sorry Lar, I would call, but this is easier):

1) moving to seattle?
2) how to say goodbye to everything I know
3) faith/religion (need to get the hook up in seattle)
4) talk I had with my sister about marriage...
5)... which led to yet another deep thinking session about my weight
6) feeling like everyone is against me and thinking that everything I do is againsnt them when in actuallity I have so much on my mind right now that I'm kind of being selfish.
7) for the first time in 5 years I'll be unemployed and leaving the safety bubble of my current job with girls I adore and will miss VERY much, and a boss that can tolerate my psychotic nature.
8) leaving my parents, and having something happen (yeah, well, that's always a worry)
9) getting a job and a roof in seattle
10) M-O-N-E-Y (which should be #1, but I'm trying not to freak)

So to anyone that is noticing that I'm not exactly myself, please understand that I have a TON on my mind, and please don't take it personally. I'm about to go and do things on my own, of my own doing, no one is forcing me or making me do any of this. And I'm at the point to where I can admitt that I'm scared of leaving my bubble...but to quote my sister in a letter that I still read as often as I can "I want you to do something out of your comfort bubble, learn something, and in doing that, you can truly live life". Very wise that sister of mine...well sis, this is definatly out of my comfort bubble, but I'm not going to back down.

Please treat me with kit gloves over the next couple of weeks because I'm going through hell to get to where I'm going, and I need all the support I can get. Cheerio.