Having emotions suck ~WARINING- may cause discomfort, or the need to find me and give me a hug~

Yeah, you can already tell from the title that this blog is going to bit on the ranting/sobbing/emotional/pissy kind. Yeah...welcome to my life. I'm going to say it's because I forgot to get my prescription filled; however I consider that a cop-out. So I figure this is just who I am at the current moment (even goddesses have their flaws).

Rant #1- 'A' likes another girl. Yeah, that means I get to be a best friend to yet ANOTHER guy that I totally dig, while at the same time swallowing my self pity and pretending that it's the greatest friendship...EVAR!

Rant #2- guy best friend is obsessed with sleeping with other best friend (guy on girl action, not same sex attraction). Since girl best friend is not available due to a "healthy relationship", he plans on tapping HER best friend (not me...suprised?). So they (girl BFnd and her BFnd), plan on making a trip down to portland this next weekend (much to my surprise) to visit guy BFnd. Guy BFnd just called to say that he was planning a "secret" surprise trip to come visit in 3 weeks...gee, not a secret from me...obviously. He doesn't call me first anymore, in fact, he hardly calls me at all anymore, but he calls my girl BFNd daily and visa-versa...aww..idn't that sweet? (gaaaaag)

Rant #3- I work 2 jobs and go to school so that some day I can laugh at the slackers from my pent house apartment on Fith Ave. in NY, so why does it feel like I'm wasting my youth? Sometimes I see what all my slacker friends are doing and how fun they're having, well, slacking off, and I get sad/mad because I'm working MY butt off, and I'm sounding more like 40 year old instead of my ripe old age of 25....grrr...is that a gray hair??!!!

Rant #4- I'm single....still, and I hate men cuz they suck. Can't stop thinking about Matt, especially since we missed eachother at a choir concert by mere hours, and the sheer knowledge of that is bugging me, not to mention the photo's I thought I burned or turned into a voodoo doll happened to fall out when a box of papers fell over via moving process. *sigh....both my cuddle buddies are girl crazy and therefore out of commission (i'm going to cry into my chocolate now).

~FINAL RANT~
I love my sister, and her family. I'm totally stoked to be going there and getting a chance to see my wonderful niece and nephews, not to mention hang out with my sis. and her hubby....but after I do that, all I want to do is fly away to a secluded beach (due to my whale like appearance, i don't want somebody calling beach whale patrol), and have a vacation away from phones, works 1 and 2, and anything else that would make me wince other than the wonderfully glaring sun that might bring a little more palor into my flaccid complexion.

I HATE THIS PLACE AND I WANT TO LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, rants over......guess I have nothing else to add. This isn't for pity, I just feel that by getting it out into the open, I can finally visualize these demons and fight them to their death via glaring match...and maybe a little open palm slapping....*sigh...life goes on...right? Cio'