The Reverse Effect

Well, I've been friends with a guy for a long time. We'll call him "A" for now. I've know him since I was a teenager, we've done plenty of things together, like church dances and hanging out together at the school we both attended. Well, it seems like no matter what, no matter how long we are apart, we always seem to find eachother eventually. Sure I had a big crush on him in high school, but my life and my feelings change. Well, recently he went through a break up and we ended up hanging out a bit. I gave him advice on how to deal with post breakup woes, and used a lot of my own experiences (many as they are) to help him deal with his decision to be the one to do the breaking. I guess that being involved in that experience gave us both the chance to become very close and bond for the first time. Both of us being very emotional about relationships, kinda ended up having a quasi-relationship. We both didn't want to be in one, but it was convenient to be together. Well, recently things have gotten a little weird, and I finally realized that we were acting like a dating couple. Anyone who saw us from a third part point of view would agree that we looked and acted like we were in a relationship, which is something neither of us are ready for. I still have a lot of mucking to do based on my last relationship, and I also refuse to be "rebound girl". We both have the common sense to talk about these things, and have decided to cool our jets for the time being. I informed him that I wouldn't trade that experience for anything, and that the last month has really helped me strengthen a lot of areas that I have weakened over the last couple of years, and that he really was my rock of strength, but now I'm ready to weigh anchor and move on into my own blue something. I guess I feel better, because I kept myself from doing exactly what made my last relationship go poopy. I wasn't afraid to talk about stuff, and call somebody on their crap and he(unlike matt), opened up on his own accord and wasn't afraid to tell me how he was seeing things. Now that I've gotten that out of the way, I don't feel as bad, I mean, it kinda stung, but I'm not going to let history repeat itself, not with this guy, he means to much to me. So, thanks Matt for teaching me that I need to stop being such a physical and emotional leach! Now I can concentrate on just being friends with 'A', and not worry bout anything else. Afterall, I really do care for this guy, and the last thing I want to do is turn him into something that he's not naturally, and will hate himself for later...I've done that already, and the consequences suck. I still have high hopes with 'A', but I don't feel the need to rush on anything. We'll still hang out once and a while, and cuddle some, but with less frequency than we have been. Ahhhhh....how liberating! Cheers!